Feeling a bit overwhelmed

So the hubby and I have recently decided that we are going to pursue an international adoption. We've looked into a lot of options, and I think we've come to a final decision that we are going to try to adopt a child from Ethiopia. The last major piece of the puzzle is to settle on an agency; right now we've recieved preliminary approval from two different agencies and until the moment when we have to start putting down the big bucks, we're kind of following through with both agencies. This means that we're duplicating a lot of things, especially when it comes to filling out forms.

I hate filling out forms. Hate it. Particularly forms that have to do with family history.

For those who don't know much/anything about my family history, my younger sister passed away a little over 5 years ago. She struggled with anorexia and bulimia for over 10 years, and in the end her heart finally gave out. She died on New Years Day; I was the one who found her in her apartment a few hours after she died.

About a year and a half ago, my father died of a heart attack at age 59. My dad was probably the person I had the most in common with in the whole world. He collapsed at a movie theater and though they were able to get his heart started again after working on him for almost 2 hours, very soon after that he passed away. We had actually just gotten home from the hospital when the doctors called us to come back because he was going downhill so quickly. My stepmom decided not to go back, so I was the one who was with him when he died.

I say all of this because filling out these stupid forms is like being slapped in the face with all of this stuff over and over again.

Siblings? Check.
Living or deceased? Damnit.

Father: living or deceased. Damnit again.

Oh, and while we're at it, we need a letter from any counselors that you might have seen ever in your life saying that you're emotionally fit to adopt. So that means getting in touch with the counselor that I saw after my sister died and getting him to sign off on my emotional wellbeing. That ought to be fun.

So right now, after spending the evening filling out a stack of lovely forms, I've decided that I am going to sit on my butt with a glass of red wine and watch Intervention. That's a great way to make myself feel like my life is normal;)